Friday, August 3, 2012

Cake, ice cream, cookies. A collection of poems.

Cake
 
 Delicious, Chocolatey, Gooey
Sweet, Delicious, Tasty
Chocolatey, Awesome, Crunchy
Awesome, Magnificient, Triangular
Magnificent, Carrot, Vanilla
Vanilla, Chocolatey Gooey Delicious
Yummy Cake

   Ice Cream
 
 It's my favorite treat...
That I love to eat.
Though I'm such a mess...
I couldn't care less.


Cookies
Cookies are good
Cookies are nice
I'll eat half a dozen
Without thinking twice.
 Cookies so sweet
Cookies so hot
A chocolate chip cookie
Would sure hit the spot.

 A word from the Mamma:
Please know that cake, ice cream, and cookies are not all this child eats.
See?

Thursday, August 2, 2012

Favorite 18 month pictures (so far)

I had to take a couple minutes to post my favorite pictures so far of Benjamin's 18th month of life (plus a bonus picture at the end)!  The time has flown by and, though we have been going through tremendous trials, we are having a ton of fun!
1st day as an 18 month old! eek!
He loves his fishing pole, especially when he is not wearing a shirt.
It hit me as my son became completely enamored with this large weed; we need a yard. *sad*
Not sure what he is saying here but it in intense for sure.
The best place for trains is in a pile.  Please don't move them while taking your picture.
I had to include this one as a sweet reminder that there are difficult days as a big little guy.
We had a great time playing in the church nursery!
Exercising correct safety precautions while using "power tools."
Sorry Teenage Benjamin, Mamma had to include this one of you on the "pah-ee."
Just let him sit at the big table with a bag of trains and he is good for at least an hour!
Too busy for a picture
"Cahw" Our child speaks with an east coast accent.
He is the cutest little guy!  How is he already 18 months old!?  He currently loves trucks, trains, cars, and Daddy...

"What are you doing!?  You better not put this on your blog!"
For your enjoyment, Benjamin wore him down with his big brown eyes and I used my sweet smile and he relented his restriction.

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Here we go again...again.

Aaron had a PET CT scan yesterday afternoon and we met with his oncologist afterward to discuss the results. 
Mamma says we are some good lookin' guys.  I agree!
1. The spot in Aaron's abdomen has grown slightly and is now 1 cm and lighting up brightly on the scan.  Cancer and other high-energy cells, like the brain, light up on the scan. On his scan before surgery, this spot was very dim and is not quite obviously glowing.

2. Unexpectedly the PET CT revealed recurrence already in Aaron's chest. Aaron has been having quite a bit of pain around the incision site wrapping around from his back to the front of his body.  When we looked at that scan, it was lit up exactly where he is experiencing pain.  This recurrence is a bit different than the past 2 diagnoses.  The past two were encapsulated tumors (a ball of cells contained like a balloon). This time the cancer is in pleura, which are layers of cells between the lungs and chest wall, and is diffused in the tissue rather than being contained.
Daddy, I thought we were doing a crazy face...
So, where do we go from here?  Surgery has not been discussed.  It is my understanding that the pleura is not really possible to surgically remove and the spot in his abdomen is in very difficult location.  Cyber knife for the area in his abdomen is not longer an option due to the cancer in his chest.  Radiation is also off the table because you cannot radiate the pleura due to its cell makeup.
Detroit Tigers? Check. Mamma and Daddy? Check. Game face? Oh yeah.
We do have hope though!!!  Aaron is possibly eligible for a great clinical trial that is open right now.  They are studying the of an IV chemotherapy on the efficacy of a known beneficial oral chemotherapy.  It is an open study so we will know what treatment Aaron is receiving (oral only vs. oral+IV) and it is open to crossover.  Crossover means that if his scan at 8 weeks shows no improvement, he can be switched to the group receiving both oral and IV chemotherapy.  He'll have a scan every 8 weeks to check his progress.  We are praying that this will work to not only stop the growth, not only shrink these tumors, but to eliminate cancer completely from his body.  If he is eligible, he may be able to begin receiving treatment as early as the end of next week.  However, if the chemotherapy treatments in this clinical trial are not effective, there are additional options, such as trying the chemo regiment he was on last year as well as when he was a child.
Chillin' on a hot morning watching either Sesame Street or ESPN with my Daddy.
It has been a difficult 24 hours for us.  We hold tight to the truth that God was not surprised by these results as we were.  Our Lord is in complete control of this situation even though it feels like we are spinning out of control.  The Creator, who created Aaron's body exactly as He wanted it, holds him in His hands. Please join me in praying for the prayer requests below.
Pray with us.
* Praise God for His sovereignty over our lives, the love He has for us, and that He has promised to never give us more than we can bear.
* Praise for modern medicine; for the scans that are able to detect this horrible disease, the chemotherapy treatments that are available, and the men and women who continue to research and work to develop better treatments
* Praise that we have optionS.  There are so many who are told there is nothing more that can be done and I am so grateful that we have not had to hear those words uttered.
* Pray for peace, guidance, wisdom, and patience.
* Please pray that Aaron's creatinine blood level is under 2.1 when they check it next for the clinical trial.  Due to his kidney disease, his levels are higher than someone without kidney disease.  The limit for him to participate in the trial is 2.1.  Yesterday, his level was 2.3.  PLEASE PRAY!
* Pray that he is eligible for the clinical trial and this chemotherapy regiment is effective and beneficial and that God will continue to protect his kidney through all of this.
* Pray for wisdom for Dr. Tawbi as he weighs the risks and benefits, results of scans, and what is the right treatment for Aaron
* Pray that we will continue to grow in our love for each other and not allow the stresses of cancer to affect our marriage or our family life
* Please pray for relief from pain for Aaron.
* Pray that we will keep our eyes affixed on God.

Thank you again for your prayers and for continuing to lift up our family.  It is such a comfort to know that when we are not alone in our prayers.

Despite everything, Aaron is feeling well enough to work from home this week, which is a great blessing.  Ben is being just as helpful as last year.
*Sigh* He really needs my help this year.

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

Molar for a Moeller!

We've had a big week here at the Moeller home!
My guys on the day the little one's big tooth came through, hence the face...

Benjamin had his first molar break through!!!  We are still waiting for bottom teeth 3 and 4 to come through but they are just being pokey.  So our little Moeller has his first molar!
I have to keep my pearly whites in nice shape!

Textin' my lady friend to let her know I got a big boy tooth.
Daddy gave Benjamin his first all over hair cut.  He received his first trim by Mommy after his first birthday (tear).  With summer here, the clippers came out and hair flew!
Mommy went easy on me...
Daddy doesn't mess around.
Big boy hair cut!
And, if that weren't enough, Benjamin turned 16 months today and took a 2 hour and 45 minute nap this afternoon!  Hooray!
We double fist cheese in this family. It's what Packers fans do.
 We hope you have a wonderful Memorial Day weekend. 
...and I have to tell Joshua, and Noah, and Jack, and...
Thank you to all those who have served, are serving, and will serve in our military to protect this country and the freedom we all enjoy.  Thank you for your service.

Saturday, May 19, 2012

This really happened!

After a post full of sad news, I thought I would share some good news with you all about our sweet, adorable, napping Ben!  Yes, I said napping and I said with with a happy voice!!!
I love to put things on my head!  I am a fashion-forward little man.

As if that wasn't enough, on March 27, 20102, I finally got a picture of my cutie napping! 

Corduroy Bear and Blankie banished to the floor in hopes he won't fall asleep.
My sleeping cutie!
 We have moved to one nap a day and our sweet little boy is napping for almost 2 hours most of the time!  Now, you mommies with napping babies are terrified to think "only 2 hours the whole day" but I tell you this is so amazing I hardly know what to do with myself!

I feel so much better after napping, especially without pants!
<3
 In other news, he is also forward facing in his car seat!
So this is what's going on!

Thursday, May 17, 2012

Here we go again...

I love my Daddy!  He helps me walk on uneven ground.

It is with a heavy heart that I write this post.

About a month ago, a "nodule" was identified on Aaron's follow up CT scan.  He had one on Tuesday, May 15th and it showed some cause for concern.

Fortunately, we were able to be seen by Aaron's surgeon this morning rather than having to wait until mid-June!  Praise God!  Unfortunately, they are confident that the nodule we were hoping was fluid is actually a recurrent sarcoma tumor.  On his CT scan from a month ago, the nodule was 8x1.8 millimeters and on his scan from Tuesday it is now measuring 32x21 mm.  Obviously, it is growing which is another indicator of concern.  Some good news is that it seems to be encapsulated (contained) just like the one Aaron had last year and the surgeon feels there is a good chance it will just peel off his chest wall.  The tumor is located between the lung and where he is missing his rib from last year's surgery, which is also great news as there will not be any risk of paralysis or need for bypass surgery due to his aorta being involved. 

Aaron was given the choice of scheduling a biopsy to confirm that it is a cancerous tumor or to just head straight for surgery.  Given their confidence based on the CT scan and the fact that it has doubled in size in one month, Aaron has chosen to schedule surgery.  Surgery is scheduled for Friday, June 1 (2 weeks from tomorrow) and UPMC Presby in Pittsburgh.  We will know what time the day before.  There is a small possibility that the surgery will be laparoscopic but we were hopeful of this last year and it definitely was not the case!  The surgery team will use cameras prior to any major incisions to go in and see what the inside of his body looks like and adjust their coarse of action accordingly.  If it cannot be done laparoscopically then it will be almost exactly the same as last year, which means a long recovery is ahead of us.  One the plus side, his surgery is a month earlier than it was last year so we might be able to enjoy the summer sun this year!

In preparation for surgery, Aaron will have a PET scan and PFT (Pulmonary Function Test) done next week.  These two tests will check to see if there are any additional tumors that the CT has not identified as well as checking how well his lungs are working. 

Don't we look handsome!?  Look at all of Daddy's hair!
Obviously, we would appreciate your prayers.  Below is a list of specific prayer and praise items that you can pray for:

1. Praise that they saw this tumor early when it is still small and has less of a chance to had adhered to important organs
2. Praise that Aaron's same surgery team will be the ones performing this surgery as well.  They are familiar with us, with Aaron's thought process, and his body
3. Praise that we live so close to the medical facilities and that Aaron's oncology team has been following him so closely
4. Pray for strength and comfort for us and our family.  It was really hard to hear this diagnosis less than a year after the last one.
5. Pray that the PET scan will show no additional tumors and that this is an isolated one that can be easily removed
6. Pray that the surgery will be as minimal as possible, that Aaron's body will handle it well, and his recovery will be smoother than last year

Most importantly, please pray that God will use this for His glory.  Pray that He will use this to draw Aaron, Benjamin and me closer to Him and closer to one another and that we will be a witness to those around us, giving glory and praise to Him.  Pray that He will use this to make himself known to those who do not yet know Him.

We covet your prayers, love, and support through this.  We wish we were able to e-mail you with great news but we now prepare for the road ahead of us and ask that you will do the same.

Aaron has taken the day off to spend with Benjamin and me.  We are headed to the zoo because what is a better way to spend a day off than in the sunshine at the zoo enjoying our family!?
We are lookin' sharp after Easter Sunday service!

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

15 month check up

Phew! I thought I heard the doctor coming in to ruin my fun.

Benjamin had his 15 month well-visit today.  We confirmed a few things while we were there:

1. Our son is a bean pole!
Here are the stats:

Height: 33 in. (+12 1/2 inches since birth, 97 percentile)
Weight: 22 lb, 2 oz (+14 lb, 11 oz since birth, 15 percentile)
Head circumference: 48 cm (+9 cm since 1 mo, 70 percentile)

Who you callin' bean pole!?  Can't you see my slight belly and those 2 half-wrinkles around my knee?

2. Benjamin is really smart!
He was able to tell the pediatrician what a sheep says (quick "bah") and a tiger, which is currently his favorite animal noise ("ahwrrr").

3. Our baby boy is a toddler.
As you can guess from these pictures, he was not content to sit nearly naked on my lap and cuddle like we had done so many times before.  He was squirming so much, I put shoes on him and he walked around the room and showed off for the doctor.

Mom, can I wear this outfit all the time?
4. Ben still doesn't like shots...not one bit!